My name is Wendy and in July 2006 my husband Mike decided to take his own life.  We met when we were 16, had been married for 15 years and had two children 14 and 12.

Words cannot begin to describe the feelings that I went through after this...shock..anger..despair.. I felt physically ill and was utterly consumed by guilt. My head was full of never ending and never to be answered questions.  The only person who could let me have the answers was gone. 

The first six months went by....I thought that I would never begin to heal, never forget, never forgive.  I then got in touch with a support group run by a group of people who had lost loved ones through suicide.  I went to meet them and it was the first time I could sit down and talk and talk and talk.  My feelings were listened to and understood.  These people had been through what I had been through and for the first time I was told that, however desperate and sad I felt, things would get better over time.

It has now been over two years.  I still miss Mike, still feel sad that he's not around, still have crying fits  but know that I can cope and that there is hope for the future.  I see my children growing older and slowly coming to terms with the loss of their dad but they still miss him every day too.

Losing someone through suicide is one of the most painful experiences one can deal with but through the many dark days after just knowing that there will be light again may ease some of that pain.

I had initially set up this website as there seemed to be no support network dedicated to this kind of loss within the South West area. As I have now been in contact with people all over the UK I want to concentrate on making sure everybody has access to support via email.   I just know how much I needed the contact with others who had experienced the same loss as myself...we could help each other and as the group expands other members can offer support to those who need it.

Wendy

 

This site is dedicated to:

My parents, sisters, family and friends,

To Matt and Hannah, my very precious children

Chris, whose caring support and patience have been constant

And to Mike, who will always be a part of our lives